July 1st
There are some things in my life
that need to be changed, some more drastically than others. Some I have control
over and some I don’t. Some can be started now but with some, I just have to
ride it out for a bit longer. Since I cannot control everything, I thought I
would start with the things I can. And since I have struggled with my weight for
the majority of my life I have decided to start there. What inspired this
insatiable inner drive to change now? Perhaps it is because I will be 30 next
month and it is time to get into shape. I want to be healthy and finally like
what I see when I look in the mirror in the morning. I like my personality and
who I have become on the inside. It is time to match the outside with what is
inside.
I have
slowly begun to give up what (feels like anyway) my lifeline – soda. Oh so bad
for me. It’s a double-edged sword but just that one move will make a big
difference. Yesterday, I splurged and had 2 cans of soda and was so mad at
myself. Today I opened a can and only drank half of it in about the course of 3
hours. I felt so bloated and gross so I went to the fridge and pulled out the
water jug. I even bought some ice cubes trays that freeze the water in
different shapes – stars, grapes, and strawberries. Small mercies like that
make this change much easier to handle. Small mercy # 2 – salsa dancing.
Dancing to music you enjoy sure makes it fun to work on losing weight. The
perfect music I found dancing to is basically anything from Pit Bull, Nayer,
Mohombi and even Jennifer Lopez. They have the Mexican/Caribbean beat which
gets your body moving. Flo Rida provides some bumpin’ tunes also.
Grocery
shopping was just about as difficult and painful as child birth, I swear. But I
did well. Cantaloupe, red and green grapes, and blackberries were what I walked
out with. High five! I survived the chip and cookie aisle…and even went into
the soda aisle without grabbing any. Double high five!
This
sucks. Just being honest. But it is
something I have set my mind to, and if you know me, I do not give up on things
I want. Surfing for some ideas on workouts and meal plans, I came across some
awesome motivational posters on Pinterest. One of them says, “Whatever you do,
do not give up. Because for once, this is for you.” Yo. That’s right. This is for me. As a mother, I am constantly
sacrificing myself and things I want for me, but not this time. This is for me.
July 2nd
Wow, I
sure feel all the dancing I did yesterday! Feels great though. I thought I
would be absolutely dying for a soda this morning but I’m not. I don’t even
have a headache. I’m actually looking forward to the coffee being gone so I can
have some water. How about that? This is cool. I feel it in my legs and abs but
they aren’t sore enough to not do it again today. Now, I just have to keep
remembering to eat healthy and resist the junk food. But, if it isn’t in the house, I can’t eat it. Right? Right.
I will
continue to document my journey through this. I know it is going to be
difficult, especially when eating out, but I just have to remember why I’m
doing this, and resist the temptation.
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